This week has been a complete roller Coaster ride for me.... On 25th April, some revelations were made, some hasty steps were taken, some mature decisions were made, some immature decisions were made to appear mature!! Scolded all the guys who even appeared in front of me... Sent some nasty mails, shouted at people, lost balance over myself... Komal, manavi n Snigdha trying to cover up for me...
26th April, the killer module CS1102C finally got over and I realised that i was in love with the module.... The Best Lecturer of this sem : Tan Sun Teck (CS1102C), the Best Tutor: Steven Halim (CS1102C, he is a graduate student, very cute and his status on his blog is single!! So those who like him can ask me for further info ;)). Talked to Rashika for hours.... Wow!! I love her :)
27th : Exams practically over....(the last one on 2nd)!! Watched Kya Kool Hain Hum and realised that I have started enjoying perv jokes...bah!!
28th: The weird idea of getting Dei into the MC as MC DOPI.... Dei's Farewell (I hate the word farewell... will see him pretty soon....rather too soon :P). Playing truth n dare at the pool point.... fun :D!!! Poor guys!! I was the only girl playing the game :D
29th was one of the Best Days in Singapore!! And I will describe it a bit vividly... credit for such a day goes to Snuggy, Komal n Manavi :) Snigdha was to leave for India the next day so, we had to shop.... And the two girls of our group who simply hate shopping went for shopping together...hehe (If you couldn't figure out the two girls are Snigdha n Me)!! Thats why it was so wonderful!! So, we arrive at City Hall MRT Station. First thing...BREAD TALK!!!!! Mwahahahaha.... Then we ate, n ate n ate... Next: Dei's farewell gift!! What???? Something which he would have least expected....hehe! Then we go to buy stuff for Snigdha's family n Snigdha too... Enter a shop, saw beautiful hats (Similar to Sombrero).. I wear one and snigdha takes the pic... Snigdha wears and the shopkeeper comes and tells us that photo taking not allowed... I say ok and click Snigdha's photo in front of that person.... and you can guess what happened.... (No, he didn't throw us out...We are girls!! How can a guy throw out a girl!) Alright, then we went to the Body Shop!!! And we start shopping....haha!! The bill...ummmm I can just say that it was above S$100... hehe!!
Next, we go to Esprit!! Finally, I liked a pair of sun glasses (Most of them don't suit me)!! I look awesome!! "How much is this for??".... Only S$220 Ma'am....:P Damn, why do I like only royal n expensive things?? Must have been a pricess in my previous life!!
And then we went to the body massage chair n sat for the demo.... The guy allowed us to sit there for 2 shifts....reason - he was flirting with Snigdha...haha!! he was Cute though... And Snuggy knows his whole life's story now....
Then we come back and go to Khansama to have dinner (Komal n Manavi also join us) and what happened after that.... Cannot be described...no no no no no!! Its one of the best memories...hehe!!
Next day, two see offs!! First, sending off Dei and then Snigdha!! And then I sulked almost for half the day!!
Oh...ho!! 29th April was an awesome day!! And I am missing Snigdha like hell while writing this!!
Monday, 30 April 2007
Roller Coaster Ride!!
Thursday, 26 April 2007
Extraordinary Day!!
25th April, 2007 is a Golden Date whereby two (extra) ordinary people decided to do something extraordinary.... I really hope that they can succeed (I can't reveal the details now... But will update about it in may be a couple of months, years.. Lets See!!)
Leia Mais…Saturday, 21 April 2007
Exams, yay!!
Ok, now I am not among those rare species of the world who lurve exams (the likes of Hermione Granger from Harry Potter). I don't hate them either. For me they are just a part of life! Every year we have been facing the exam period atleast 2 times since the age of 2 n 1/2. Yes, I gave exams even in my prep school and Ma has kept all my answer sheets in a very good condition to perhaps show to my children :P
The whole idea being that why do we create a fuss about this period. I actually love this period (not the exams but the period). In this short period of time, we can feel almost all the emotions we are aware of. I simply love this mixed emotions' sensation. Its just so unique and I have been able to feel it only during exams.
But as all good things have some turn offs, the exam period is no exception. No, I am not talking about exams. I am fine with them. It is the stupid pre exam period. I really hate it. Its full of so much stress, apprehensions, anxiety and all those stupid emotions.... I really hate it! Once the exams start, everything is so fast and in no time you find yourself holidaying... But this pre exam period... Uff!!
Anyways, I have managed to cross this Pre exam period successfully this time as well and have entered the exam period today. Had my Maths exam today.. It was kind of ok.. Actually I am not happy with it! But thats life...
Now, let me get back to studying for the next exam!!
Tuesday, 17 April 2007
What do girls want??
Well, the past few days have made me realise what girls actually want when they are stressed or in some problem. They want somebody to empathetically listen to their problems. They don't want solutions (they either have them or would accept them later). They just want someone to listen them out and empathize with them, someone to make them feel that they are not alone, someone to support them, someone to make them feel secure, someone to care for them and other emotional sentences can be included (Its a long list). And all this can be done by just listening to them without butting in with the solutions to their problems..
I think all the girls generally can do it very well, its the guys who should be trained the ability of empathetic listening... What do the guys do wrong??
Firstly, they try to show their concern by providing solutions... Excuse me, girls have brains which are perhaps sharper. They know the solution, they just want to talk out their stress... Can you just lend them your ears?? I was telling one of my guy friends that I am not prepared for my exams, he replied with utmost concern, "Then study harder and prepare." Duh huh! Did you really think that if you had not told me this, I would have not studied.... Of course, I would have! I just wanted you to say, "Don't worry! I understand your situation but I am sure that you'll do well." It would have been such a morale booster...
Secondly, they try to invalidate our feelings!!!! This is the worst thing you can ever do to us... Ok, sometimes our worries might appear to have no basis ( being polite by not saying illogical) but then we are GIRLS!!!! We always have our reasons for feeling in a certain way, which you as guys cannot understand.... So, please don't invalidate our apparently illogical worries!!! Girls can always understand these feelings... Thats why my partner sent me a very empathetical mail today..... Thanks Pam!! Love ya! Guys, just give us some re-assurance....Thats all we want and need! We are not asking for something you can't give... are we??
Monday, 16 April 2007
Just an update... I sent Saloni a bouquet of flowers and a card.... She has become mad with happiness....
Haha... I am sooooooo happy!!
Happy Birthday Darling!!!
Today is my darling's birthday... My sister, Sonakshi (a.k.a. Saloni, Pikachu) has turned 12!! My God, time flies! It looks as if she was born just yesterday (Sounds like a dramatic Indian Movie dialogue :P)
But seriously, I had always longed for a sister. She was born when I was 7. Coz I was a premature child and I had a hole in my heart and was on continuous medication for the first 5-6 years of my life. And hence, my parents did not want to have another child. But then the medication cured my problem and I was blessed with a sister.
She is my sweet heart. I just love her so much. She makes me so very proud! I am so lucky to be an integral part of her life..
Even though she doesn't know about my blog (I think she is too young to know about life and experience it through my posts), I would love to wish her from the bottom of my heart....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!!!
May you get whatever you want.... And remember, though I can't be present around you physically, I am always there for you!!! :)
Love you loads!!
Make Ma and Me more and more proud of yourself.....
Sunday, 15 April 2007
Stupid Needs!!
These exams make me so vulnerable... I am feeling the need of being loved, cherished and pampered.. Uff-uff!! I need my sense of security which unfortunately I am not able to find...
My family is not around,
I haven't been much in contact with Rashika (my best friend),
Komal has gone to India,
Siddharth Bhaiya and I have developed a communication gap,
Dei is all busy preparing for his moderation and departure,
I have never talked about such vague feelings to Imran
and above all,
I have A SENSE OF LOSS AND OF NOT BEING PREPARED!!
I really hope that this phase passes soon... Thank God that Snuggy and Manavi are around otherwise I would have gone mad!!
But I shall keep on fighting!!
Wednesday, 11 April 2007
Pojjiee!!!!
I remember one of my Value Education lessons in Std 12 (JC 2) very vividly when my Principal, Sr. Aloysius, asked us which is our favourite word.... There was a huge variety of answers ranging from Mom, God, Studies, Love and laughter and so on.... And then Rashika said that she likes Uji because Adi-Dia (Her newly born twin siblings) call her by that name.. Quite true, isn't it??
The names by which different people call us are perhaps the most important words for us.. Imagine you are in a huge gathering (doing whatever) and somebody calls out your name(may be somebody else with your name) but you definitely respond to that, don't you? By name I don't just mean the registered English or Chinese names but your nick names as well...
I consider myself very very lucky to have a large number of nick names...And mind you, the inventors have the copyrights for each name.. I try my best that these rights are not violated.. ;)
Shubhangi - The World
Shubhi - Family
Sia - Ma
Shubbie - Pam and (Sometimes) Imran
Shube - Daddu (Now nobody after he died, and I won't allow anybody to call me this)
Shubbie Doobie Doo - Vijit Bhaiya (Inspired by Scooby Dooby Doo)
Subi - Jain Uncle
Shub - Originally Imran, now the whole AIESEC world and my non-Indian friends..
Shub Bangs, Shub Bangs - Dei
Shub-bung-bung - Ker Ying
Shub Shub - Nabeel, Henri
Shu - Cecilia
Didichu - Saloni
Daughter - Imran
Mentee - Dei
Sis - Udit Bhaiya, Devika
Boss - Paul
Buddy - Alvin
Partner - Pam
Mate - Alvin
Moti - Rashika
Saawariya - Snigdha (with dance) and Komal
Circuit (pronounced as cir cute) - Snigdha, Komal and Manavi
Fauji - Siddharth Bhaiya
Recently, one more name has been added to this list :
Pojjiee (pronounced as Pauji) by Snigdha...
I think this is one of the cutest names I have been given.... And the way she says it.. Just like a small kid calling her loved ones... So many feelings take hold of me when she calls me by this name!!
Each of these names is so very special to me... I love each of them... :)
Tuesday, 10 April 2007
The Power of ONE...........
This is what we (Komal, Snigdha, Manavi and I) say when weird (or random) people ask us if we have a boyfriend or some other personal questions:
ONE Boy,
NO Boy,
ONE Girl,
ONE Person,
ONE Soul,
ONE Life,
ONE Inspiration,
ONE Idea,
An Idea can change your LIFE!!!!
Haha....Confused???? Thats the objective mah!!!!
Then we have fits of hilarity that last for:
ONE Second,
ONE Minute,
ONE Hour,
ONE Day,
ONE Week,
ONE Month,
ONE Season,
ONE Year,
ONE LIFETIME!!!!
Cheers to us!!!!
Monday, 9 April 2007
Waiting.......
Sometimes you feel that you are waiting for something but you actually don't know what are you waiting for....
Have you had that feeling ever?? I experience it every now and then (specially during the exam time!!!!) Feeling it again!! I have never missed my family so much....
Oops!!! Feeling so lost.... Seems everything is at stake!!!! These exams make you so mellow!!!
Friday, 6 April 2007
I am more boyish!!!!!
Well, I am more boyish!!!! I took this test and it says that I am more boyish.....haha!! (Now, I have a good reason to say if people ask me why I am still single!!!!)
| You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
Now, it looks so real..... Imran has always told me that he has always considered me "one of the guys"!!! I have always enjoyed being in the company of guys, not only because I like them but because their conversations make more sense to me!!!! There are only few girls in the whole world with whom I can go in for a long conversation.... My father says he has always considered me his SON!!!! Dei and Réne say that I am naturally cross-dressed!! I was a tom-boy until past few months!!
Shall I consider going for a sex change???? Leia Mais…
Wednesday, 4 April 2007
Family Again Finally!!
There are some moments in ur life which touch u and change ur life forever!! The period from 16-26 March can definitely pass as one of those for me. The experience started for me at Changi...where I had a not-so-good experience....nevertheless, it made me a bit more mature and a lot more strong!!!!
Anyways, I was going to meet my family after a long gap of 9 months...so I was very very excited. Finally, I reached my motherland, India! My ma-pa, and sis, Saloni, were there at the airport. There was a sudden gush of so many feelings when I saw them.. I had turned completely red!! Oh, what a moment it was! I gave my Ma "jadoo ki jhappi" (a warm magical hug).... And suddenly I felt so much stronger! I was full of courage, full of power, full of energy.... This is the "Power Of Love"... I was nearly on the verge of a break down just before meeting them, but seeing them rejuvenated me and I was all ready again to face all the challenges....
Since it was quite late at night, my parents asked me to sleep...But who could sleep then. Saloni and I were awake the whole night.... Laughing like mad people on the most non-sensical and lamest jokes.. Sharing the ups and downs which we had experienced in the course of these months.. I felt a bit weird!! I could see that my stupid, immature, baby sister has suddenly matured so much, perhaps beyond her age! She will be 12 on 16th April but she was talking such deep stuff! I don't know whether I should be happy about it or not... She told me that for her, good times were no longer that enjoyable coz I wasn't present, and my absence made the bad times even worse... I know that I am her secret box, best friend, partner-in-crime, role model (I am scared to be this), guide and the only person to whom she speaks her mind out without thinking.. And now my baby doesn't have all these factors around her all the time!! But she will definitely become very strong because she is taking it quite positively! :)
The next day, I had a lot of fun with my family- we talked a lot, took a quick tour of the city, and ate delicious Indian Food (Golguppe!! Hehe). Pa and I had a competition as to who will eat the maximum number of ice cream cups. The flavour was Butter Scotch (Our favourite flavour, unfortunately unavailable in Singapore :( ).. Well, it was a tie between the both of us, but I am happy that my capacity to eat ice creams has not decreased.... Oh, what a day it was!! Though I just spent 32 hours with my family, I am happy that I met them after such a long time!! After a long long time I did not worry about anything.... Life looked perfect!
I am looking forward to meet them soon hopefully!!
