Hola people,
I am back in Singapore after spending 18 days in Turkey!! For those who don't know, I went to Turkey to attend International Congress!! It was a great experience..... When can you find more than 650 AIESECers from 100 countries in one conference hall... Whoa!!!
Now busy with catching up on a lot of stuff and preparation for Jump Start (the AIESEC Induction Conference).... Nevertheless, will update you guys with the Turkey experience, the photos and all....
Even though the experience was great, I am happy to be back.... with my friends, in my comfort zone.... Having that weird feeling of emptiness, missing people and still happy to be back... Worried about catching up and still a part of me is still in the past in Turkey!! Reliving the IC experience again....
Sunday, 2 September 2007
Back in Singapore!!!
Monday, 13 August 2007
Rakhi!!!!
Though Raksha Bandhan is on 28th August, but since I will be in Turkey at that time, I tied Siddharth Bhaiya Rakhi today!!! I love this festival!!
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Getting ready for the Occasion!!! Siddharth Bhaiya prepared the Roli I gave to him :)
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Putting the 'Tika' on his forehead!!!
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The guy I love the most in NUS *not in Singapore....hiks hiks!!!
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Mwahahahahah!!! Tying the knot of sisterhood for the life-time!!! With yearly renewals.... ;) *Poor Siddharth Bhaiya under bondage now..... wakaka!!!
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Rakhi!!!!
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Praying for his success and prosperity!!!.JPG)
Though both of us were not supposed to eat anything until I tie Rakhi... He already ate TIGER Biscuits... Poor me starved!!! *Buhuhuhuhu.... (We are supposed to make each other eat something sweet and break the fast!)
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Sunday, 12 August 2007
Being Detached!!!
I was reading Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom.... One part of the book really answered a lot of my questions! It is about getting detached!
"Detachment doesn't mean that you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That's how you are able to leave it."
"Take any emotion-love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or what I'm going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. If you hold back on the emotions-if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them-you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.' "
How true?? Answered so many of my doubts!! So many times we love something or someone but can't be with that person. We feel lonely and miss our parents. And only when we have reached the height of love, or loneliness.... we realize that that thing doesn't hurt anyore.. We detach ourselves!!! It is almost miraculous... First I used to think that my feelings are not strong enough, not genuine!!! But now I know that they are of a very high intensity and thats why I am able to reach the height of the emotion faster and hence, detach myself faster!!
Co-incidentally, today's thought on my calendar was :
Detachment does not mean lack-of-will-to-live. It does notmean negativism. Detachment means being more objective, more balanced.
Saturday, 11 August 2007
Bitter Sweet~
Hmmm... Dunno what yesterday actually was!! A series of adventures and a mis-adventure... Well, on the whole no harm done so, I think the sweet element was more powerful than the bitter one :)..
The following things happened yesterday:
1. Woke up early after a looooooong time! Yay!! Was ready to rock the world by 7:30 am
2. Went to the Temple... The best part about yesterday! To feel the divine serenity around you, protecting you
3. Went shopping *hiks hiks...but all normal day-to-day grocery... nothing splendid about it
4. Met the people at my office (or rather once my office), got my internship certificate and allowance cheque *muah!
5. Got my turkey Visa!! Yay!! I am goin on Monday... Hurrah! *Thank you Visa Guardian Angel and Vi!!
6. Left my atm card in the machine and realized about 45 minutes later about it.. Gosh!! My heart beat gave a skip, or rather many skips... I had S$***** in my account... Not all mine, infact most of it not mine!! I still haven't finished paying S*****l S$**** for no fault of mine and could not afford to be paying this large amount.. But no harm was done... *Thank you God!! Love you!!
7. Went to NUSSU for some work...
8. Kept someone waiting for me back in India.... If you are reading this I am really sorry!
9. Watched Chak De India!! Awesome movie
10. Met Aman from NTU and had a nice conversation with him *Aman, we should meet more often, you know~
So, I left my room at 7:30 am yesterday and entered it today at 2:45 am.... But I am happy as always to be busy and to use my day soooooo constructively :)... By the way, since I was travelling soooo much yesterday, I finished reading one novel and started with the other one... So, good eh?
Thursday, 9 August 2007
Majulah Singapura!!!!!
Today is Singapore's National Day.... Singapore which is my second home!!!! Which has open the doors of opportunities for me!!! Here is the National Anthem of Singapore:
Original anthem
Marilah kita bersatu
Wednesday, 8 August 2007
Being Friendly to VISAyon!!!!!
For the past few days I was really stressed because of my Turkish Visa Application... Phew!!! When yesterday, I finally submitted all my documents... a strange thought occurred to me... In the past one year, I have applied for three Visas and have had problems with all *Not that I look like a terrorist and they have refused my VISA or anything....but still... May be, this has got something to do with the fact that I always tease my friend VISAyon and hence, VISA problems... For those who don't know Visayon (Vi as I call him)... He is the Finance Head of AIESEC in Singapore, very handsome, Year 3 in Finance and perhaps the only Laotian in NUS at the moment *psst psst girls, he is single ;)
Let me take you back to July 2006 when I was all ready to come to Singapore and was happily waiting for my IPA letter which also serves as a single entry Visa... When there were only 5 days left, my family started getting a bit panicky... No VISA!!! So we had to apply for the Visa in Delhi... And I was going to get the Visa on the same day I was supposed to fly... That means No Second Chance for me... But fortunately, I got it on time *My mom got the IPA letter 2 weeks after I had left for Singapore
Then, I had to go to Malaysia for a camp in May.... I was working in May, so the Visa application delayed... And I was supposed to get the Visa one day after I was leaving for Malaysia... Whoa!!! I had to plead to the officer and he said that he will try and I can call him on the day I was leaving... But fortunately, I got the Visa, one hour before my coach was leaving for Malaysia... *What a luck!!!!!
And now the Visa for Turkey!!! Firstly, they require soooooooooo many documents.... I became mad collecting all the documents.... Here's the list and a short story behind each of these:
1. Student Status Letter:
Place: Student Service Centre Date: 6th August Time: 2 pm
I really needed the status letter that day itself but it requires minimum 3 working days to generate... Please sir, please please please please.... I really need to apply for the Visa tomorrow.. Finally the officer prints the Letter... But but Buuuuuuuuttttttt.... it reflects my wrong passport number.... This can't be done by SSC in any case... needs officers of registrar's office to make the changes and lady who does that is on leave.... Please sir, please, please, please, pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease... Fortunately, the lady on the next counter was listening to my pleadings... She scanned my passport and made some quick calls and the officer was doing his best *Thanks a lot both of you... Finally, I got my Status Letter by 4 pm
2. Bank Account Statement:
Place: DBS, Clementi Date: 6th August Time: 4:15 pm (Bank closes at 4:30 pm)
I asked Meera Di to transfer S$**** in my account as the transfer my mum made was 1 day late... The lady said that the bank statement requires atleast 3 working days to be generated and now the bank was also closing.... Please Ma'am, Pleeeease, Pleeeeease.... Finally she agreed to do so... She did overtime till 5:15 pm for my document :) *Thanks a lot!!! You are an angel...
But my Bank statement reflected my new address whereas my Disembarkation/Embarkation Card still showed the old one (Went to ICA to get it changed butthey said it can be changed only by 16th August)... No time to think... Have to collect my Air-Ticket from Cheryl.. She was waiting at City Hall MRT...
3. Address Proof:
Place: PGP Office Date: 7th August Time: 9:30 am
The proof takes minimum 3 days.... But I have to apply today otherwise I can't go... They generated the proof, called the OSA officer to come down and sign it for me *Thanks a lot.... Love you all.... But then, my name was mis-spelled in the proof.... Phew!!!! They just corrected it and signed on it....
Then I fill up the 40 questions in the application form and rush for the embassy..... The embassy stops collecting applications at 12 noon and I reached there by 11:25 am.... just on time...
The following docs were submitted:
1. Application form with a photo
2. Passport (original and photocopy)
3. Student pass and D/E card (original and photocopy)
4. Photocopy of travel insurance
5. Inviatation letter in Turkish and English
6. Bank statement
7. Status letter
8. Photocopy of air ticket
9. Application for difference in addresses
10. Address Proof
11. 62 S$
Hopefully, I'll get it on Friday...Otherwise no second chance as I fly on Monday!!!
Oh Visa Guardian Angel.. please help me get e Visa on time!!! VISAyon, I love you... No more teasing.... Now please let me get e Visa on Time!!!
Monday, 6 August 2007
My Trip to India in pics!!!
Me, Mummy and Papa :
I miss You soooo much
Mausi and Me
Saloni is our Teacher and we are portraying Gandhiji's Three Monkeys
From Top to Bottom: Avi, Me, Anu and Saloni (Looking Drunk)
Re-Union at Mc.... Most of the people had gone back by the time we started torturing Ronald (I am sitting on him)
Rashika (My Best Friend) and Me
My Group (Minus Jyoti) : Me, Shivani and Rashika
Let go Shub!!!!!
Shooooo shooooo Good memories..... There you go at the back of my mind...... I wish I had a pensieve to let go of these memories that easily!!! Leia Mais…
Loads of work again!!!!
Another one of those posts where I take out my frustration for too much work!!! Sometimes I wonder if it is wise that a 19-year old be given(or rather takes up) so much work...... but then, the satisfaction you get from working like an ass with super brains is almost inexplicable....
Here is the list of things I should get done before the 13th August, when I am going for a 3 weeks roller coaster ride in Turkey:
1. Apply for my Turkish Visa : Owwww!!!! It has soooooooo many documents which I have to get settled by today, otherwise I might not get e visa in time!! Phew!! *What a lazy bump am I!!
2. Get the preparations for welcome teas done : Which includes liaising with the speakers as well as the caterers, seeing that everything runs smoothly and AIESEC creates an impact on the attendees.. *thank God I have my Vikings with me :)
3. Go shopping: I am in scarcity of even the basic requirements for survival!!! Gosh!!!
4. Arrange my room: My room is in utter mess even now....
5. Choose the Acting President in my absence
6. Put one of my co-ordinators in probation period *The toughest of all the jobs in hand!!!
7. Review the performance of all the AIESEC departments to see that they are on track
8. My part- time job
9. And settling a lot of stuff before leaving for Turkey.....
10. Tutorial Balloting
11. Lab allocation....phew!!!
12. Apply for leave from the University!!!
13. Go to my office and get my Internship certificate and the Balance allowance
14. Hundreds of mails to be sent out...
But then, one week later :
The much awaited International Congress in Turkey!!!
Monday, 9 July 2007
Wah Taj!!
Bart Simpson has taken the lead to present her views about the Taj Mahal being one of the seven wonders... Now let me present my views from the perspective of a Taj Nagari Vasi (person from the City of the Taj)... Ok, may be while reading the post you might feel that staying in Singapore has made me "un"patriotric... but then it depends on how you define patriotism.... Patriotism is something like Bravery... For some, a person who has the courage to kill himself (commit suicide) is brave [fair enough! you need courage to kill yourself] while for some the one who faces life is brave.... I prefer the latter... Same goes for Patriotism... For some the person who speaks well of his country is Patriotic.... But for me Patriotism means accepting the shortcomings of the country and then working to free the country from these....
Again, as Bart mentioned, India is known primarily for the Taj and Kashmir, and I feel proud while introducing myself as a citizen of the City of Taj Mahal (Agra)... I am probably among the most happy people from this news and I invited every Tom, Dick and Harry I met to visit the Taj and stay at my place... (Psst psst.... it also includes some very good friends like Juliana and Won Jang, good news being that I'll probably meet Won Jang.... Hurrah!!!) But then, I remember the state of the places around the Taj.... Do I really want people to see that??
It is all shitty, tacky, smelly.... so much so that I (living only 15 km away from the Taj) find it really hard to motivate myself to visit it.... The Taj is indeed a marvellous monument but it is tarnishing... Yellowing... and what about the river Yamuna which flows right behind it... The water there is worse than sewerage water... What are we doing about it??
Just proclaiming that I am from the City of the Taj doesn't mean that I am patriotic.... There are so many children in that City of the Taj who don't even know that their city is one of the most renowned places in the world.... For them life is a constant struggle for survival... What are we doing about it??
And can you guess that what will happen now??
Here is a much underestimated crookedness which will take place... The MP (Member of Parliament) of Agra will appeal for a huge sum of money to maintain the Taj Mahal and the nearby places....By huge I mean, HUGE......
And then, 10% of it will be used to do some temporary maintenance (To last till his term gets over)... The remaining 90%..... ahem ahem ahem.... The result being that the money allocated for the welfare of the people (out of which again only 10% would have been used) went to maintain the Taj or rather unmaintain the Taj...
Do you want to know why the MP would go only for a temporary maintainence??
So, that during his term the Taj looks maintained and in his successor's term...well, let me not use the word I intended to... This will then be used as a point in the next election...
Complicated?? Nah.... This is the most common tactic in Agra Elections...
So, now tell me, what shall I feel about the Taj being one of the seven wonders of the world??
Proud to be from the city or worried about the political game which will be played using Taj's name??
Thursday, 5 July 2007
Reflection!!!
During the last days I have discovered a lot about myself. I was browsing through Dey's blog and shockingly stumbled upon some of his learnings which were in a way same as mine.... These are, perhaps, the learnings which everyone experiences at some point of their life's journey and to be truthful, you can understand them and enjoy the beauty of these learnings only when you actually live them!!! So, here you go!
You don't change people.You change yourself and that changes people. Isn't it so true?? And many times you are just amazed with the change in people's attitude... It is more like a miracle!!!
Your world is what you want it to be. If you don't like it, move! If you like it, enjoy!You don't need to spend your life complaining. It is better to smile.So, look for the things that make you smile.
Loneliness is a good company.Not all the time, not forever, but definitely is a good friend that I need to visit more often. To may be understand myself better.... To understand where I am heading to!!! Is it the place I really want to head to??
Living life fast is the new trend. Not stopping to let things sink is not healthy anyway.Balance is needed everywhere, not necessarily happens continuously, but it needs to be found. I think I have the tendency to make myself extremely busy and living life fast.... Then not be able to step back and reflect... To actually face the innermost problems rather than running away from them...
Don't be scared about the kind of person you want to be. Let it emerge, it is within you.It is within me! Give it all the time and support it needs and life will be heaven!!
Remember!
Forget!
Let it go!
Let it come! Leia Mais…
Monday, 2 July 2007
Lights, Camera Rolling and Action!!!!
Alright, I don't want to sound immodest here to say that I am one of the Best Actresses I have ever known.... (Its not only in my opinion but in that of many others who have seen me act) Being in AIESEC made me realize that I am a good stand up comedian too and have the power to engage a large group of people for hours!!! *thank u, thank u But I never thought that I would be working with professionals in a movie clip in la-la land.... And above all, during my internship with the Singapore Compact for CSR!!! But it happened...
I was asked to reach office on time on Monday (And also, be very smartly dressed *do I not dress smartly everyday??)... When I reached the office, I was informed that the Singapore Business Federation is making a movie clip (5 min long) and they want me to act for them.... Whoa!!! How did these guys come to know about my acting abilities??
I said,"Alright" with the air of Angelina Jolie.... and came out of my cabin (Yes, I have been promoted from a cubicle to a cabin)... As soon as I stepped out Sally, Jenn, Allie and the Director (Jack) said unanimously, "Put some make up, atleast lipstick"...
"Sorry, I don't wear make up"
"She doesn't need one. Jack, you should see the shot, her face is made for the camera", said the camera man *hiks hiks, I am so touched..... I have not heard such flattering words in such flirting tone for full one and a half days.... Good Mr. Camera man (Oops, forgot to ask your name :( )
Anyways, we start shooting for scene 1, where I knock the door, enter the room and shake my hands with Phillis and we exchange cards and I sit and talk for a while.... Can you believe that the part where I enter the room was shot about 10 times before we moved further.... It took us 45 minutes to just shoot the perfect scene for my entry... Sometimes, Phillis blocked me, sometimes the way I opened the door wasn't perfect, sometimes, the way I leave the door wasn't perfect, sometimes I moved my left leg first, sometimes I looked as if I had come to kill Phillis.... Phew!! I pity poor actors and actresses.... But then I was enjoying every bit of it.... Then we moved on to shaking hands.... Gosh!!! I never paid attention to how I shake hands but my, my if you are acting you have to take care of so many intricate details.... Finally, scene 1 was shot in 4 and a half hours and length of that shot in the movie would be 2 min....
And then scene 2, for the remaining day... They didn't need me for scene 3 (length in the movie half a min) so I just ran out of the office.... I enjoyed every bit of it but I don't think I would ever make it my life long profession... I am a kind of person who needs change every moment and doing the same scene again and again is not my cup of tea....
I had always thought that it is so unfair that the actors get paid so much money but acting in this short movie clip, I understand the reason why it is so! I am happy not being an actress... :D
p.s. The movie will be screened on 2nd August in Singapore Business Federation's office. And the voice recording will be done when I will be in India, I just hope that the voice which is used for me matches my personality otherwise it will be hilarious
Friday, 29 June 2007
Militants or Extremists, Terrorists or Fighters!!!!
I was scrolling through a news site (BBC) where they reported about the comments of the HAMAS Militants. Almost instantly I was reminded of the way the Indian Freedom Fighters were termed as militants by the British and perhaps, the rest of the world... And the question which has always been disturbing me started squeezing the grey cells of my brain again!!! Who are they actually... My discussion is restricted not only to the Hamas but to the "Terrorists" on the whole... Are they actually the Terrorists or are they Freedom Fighters... Freeing themselves from poverty, illiteracy, and most importantly freeing themselves from FEAR....
Now, I personally don't agree that you should kill innocent people for freeing yourself from FEAR... But weren't at some point of time these people victims of some atrocity by the PEACE ENVOYS of the world...
Saddam Hussain was executed for being an authoritarian.... Many of us justified his execution just as the British might have justified Bhagat Singh's execution (Bhagat Singh was an extremist freedom fighter of India and prayed by people even till now...) I am not saying that they are same in any respect but wasn't Saddam treated as God by many Iraqis... He was not perfect but then who is?? And I shall not go into te details of what happened and is happening to Iraq when Saddam left it.... Who knows the inside story?? Is the Media objective enough? Bah...
Lets go to the Kashmir Issue... To Indians there is a region called Pakistan Occupied Kashmir (PoK) and for Pakistanis there is a region called India Occupied Kashmir (IoK) and there are I-don't-know-how many-groups (so called militant groups) fighting for Azad Kashmir (Free Kashmir)... Haaa- Kashmir, known as the paradise on the Earth, is now a mere battleground.. But one inevitable result of all this will be that there will be more violence, more people will fight to have a "Better" Kashmir... Who is responsible for the birth of such violent people??
Does Terrorism comprise only those acts of violence which have a negative effect on the US?? But what about those acts which are caused by the US itself?? Shouldn't the Iraq War be called a Terrorist attack by the US?? I am not attacking even the US here... They might have had their reasons which I may not understand.. But why so many people had to be killed?? Everyday you come across the name of a new group fighting for something.... Why?? Have we tried to sit with them and find the root of their behaviour?? May be they are just looking for some attention and love and are unable to comprehend their feelings... May be their causes are noble but they don't know the Best ways of reaching their goal... May be they actually are freedom fighters but we are being misguided by the media and the people around us...
I remember, when I was young, people used to tell me that the Muslims are not good people, they are all terrorists... Today, I say with utmost pride that only two guys who are very close to me are Muslims, and I just love both of them... Had I lived with the feeling which was tried to be evolved in me, I would have been an anti-muslim?? And I come from the so-called educated well-to-do class... Then what about those children who have been denied even the basic necessities of life and the reason given to them is a certain group of people... Isn't their hatred for that group of people justified?? Isn't their fight for creating a prosperous world for their children justified??
I read a story where a Kashmir girl (about 12 years old) was raped by a Hindu Pandit... 5-6 years later she was ready to be a human bomb and kill a large number of Hindus.... I agree that her revenge took away lives of several innocent people but isn't the lust of the Pandit the root cause of these deaths... Had he not done what he did, perhaps Kashmir would have had a capable doctor, socialist or a perfect home maker....
The sole purpose of my writing this blog is to see that are the present day terrorists actually terrorists or just fighters!! The solution here is not to execute the present terrorists only to give birth to terrorists... For every one terrorist we kill today, 10 more might be born... The solution is to stop the birth of new terrorists!!! NOOOOO..... Please don't start killing the women now... Just make sure that the people get the basic necessities of life and justice if anything wrong has been done to them.... Politicians should take care of even those people who are not a major part of their vote banks... If each one of us pledges that we will take care of atleast one helpless person, we really won't have any problem... Come on guys!!! Just one less fortunate person.... You guys can do it....
If every family decides to adopt a less fortunate child, there won't be any more terrorists taking birth.... Take a pledge to adopt a less fortunate child, to make sure he/she gets educated, gets a lot of love, sees the beautiful side of the world!! What are you waiting for?? Just one child and you'll make an enormous difference... For that matter even save a lot of lives..... Spread your love and you will see how happy you become....
Monday, 25 June 2007
Food for Thought!!!
Friday, 22 June 2007
He Cares and I just Love him!!!!!
5 am in India....(7:30 in Singapore)... I call home,
Ma: Hello!
Me: Where is Pa?
Ma: He already left for Delhi....
Me: Okie, I'll call you later... Take care! B bye!
Another call:
Pa: Hello!
Me: Happy Birthday, Papa!
Pa: Thanks Beta! I thought I should cancel ur call and call u back but then today is my birthday... And hearing ur voice early in the morning is the best gift I can get....
Me: Thanks Pa!
Pa: You know I have taken leave from my office from 11-28 July... Will be with u the whole time... Only 20 days left for you to come back.... Come fast Beta!! Each day is passing so slowly... We are so excited!! (I am goin back home from 11-28 July!! And I have not been counting the days!!!)
Me: Pa, I am excited too....
Pa: I understand! Don't spend ur money... I'll call u later... Take care!
Me: Love you, Pa!
I know He Cares a lot and I love you tooooooooooo much!!
Wednesday, 20 June 2007
Invitation or What???
Sometimes I feel that why do people feel obliged to invite others when they don't want them hanging around.... Not only does it spoil the mood of the host but also of the person who was invited.... I received one such birthday dinner invitation some days back..... But I am grateful that this time the host made it obvious that I have been asked only for formality's sake.... Some excerpts from our conversation:
host : hey... wat are u so excited about? :)
just curious... :) (That was my nick..... And I know that you were just curious :P But sorry honey, no gossip from my side....)
me: a lot of things : b'day coming, goin home in less than a month, my best frnd back in india got thru all medical exams n i got my first pay :)
host: Wow!! congrats! congrats! congrats! and congrats! :)
btw u free tmr evening?
me: thanks :)
host: im havin a dinner at my place.. u can also come..... (Oh wow!!!!! I am so honoured.... I won't be so honoured even if the British Queen would have invited me on her birthday.... Check out the line: "u can also come"...... ha! On a side note, the British queen shares her birthday with me.... I know I am no less :P)
me: oh....i m so sorry :)
i can't promise
host: okay just see if u can make it.. if u can, bring Jhummi along too..
if not, guess she'll be left out n bored.. (yeah yeah... so considerate of you..... Don't you think you are too full of urself??)
me: I don't think that she will be free.... She is very busy herself.... (How dare she think that Jhummi lives onher mercy)
host: chal then u enjoy urself!
me: we'll see
thanks for the invitation
host: ur welcome
So, what do you guys think about this?? Was it a respectful invitation or am I too sensitive... Actually I would have gone if Jhummi wasn't invited like this.... Points to be noted, I was invited through chatting and Jhummi was not even invited by the person... It was only through me :P
Bah, we had a much better time that night.....
Tuesday, 19 June 2007
18 till I die!!!!
I turned 19 a few days back.... And to tell u the truth, I find 18 a very cool age!! I think the last year was a very impactful year for me.... My world completely changed... It was on my Birthday last year that I got admitted to NUS and after that everything changed.... completely!! It has been a roller coaster ride since then...
10 things which happened last year that make me proud:
- My group of friends (@ly and non @ly) and my pseudo family....
- Being elected as the President of AIESEC in NUS
- The Corporate Social Responsibility Project
- Being genuine with myself and to my feelings
- Doing an internship for the cause I so believe in
- Selecting the Vikings as my team! This thing makes me really proud.... I just love the Vikings...
- Winning the Best Delegate of APXLDS, New Member Excellence Award in NLDS and being known as the Dancing queen of APGN
- Maintaining relations well with people back in India.... Still in the loop of things...
- Rashika clearing all the medical exams....
- My Mum and Sis.... Yet again they get their position in things which make me proud :)
Wednesday, 13 June 2007
Another Historic Day!!!
Yet another historic day for my life!! Today I received my first working allowance.... I have received monetary awards before but today is the first time I have been paid for working in an organization (I was paid money for cleaning my cousin's room)....
Rashika told me that she made through all the medical exams back in India... I am so happy for her :D
I am going home after almost a year and less than a month.... Going on 11th July...
My Birthday is in a few days :D
And I received very touching messages today :)
What else would I want??
Thursday, 7 June 2007
One Month of working!!!!
Yay!!! Today is my monthly anniversary of starting my internship..... Wow!!! I am working..hehe!!
Ever since I was a child, I always fantasized myself in the business Suit and walking in and out the office with utmost dignity... Having high authority.... People waiting for my response for everything...hehe!! Childhood fantasies....
And I am working now... I never thought that I would work in a proper office at the age of 18 (Ok leh, only some days for me to flaunt that I am just 18)...
I don't know why I am writing but I wanted to share my happiness at having completed the first month of work!!
Monday, 4 June 2007
Sometimes.....
Sometimes, you just don't know what's happening in your life!
Sometimes, you feel that you are the most incompetent fool born on this Earth!
Sometimes, you jaywalk on a busy road praying hard that the next bus runs over you and then you can take a long rest, and the next moment you chide yourself for being such a coward and running away from your responsibilities!
Sometimes, fulfilling responsibilities is the sole purpose of your existence and you don't understand why!
Sometimes, you spend your whole time working but your work has not been appreciated!
Sometimes, your being a vegetarian causes so much problem to your friends, team mates and colleagues that you stop going for your lunch break anymore!
Sometimes, you feel that you are not important for anyone (except immediate family who are bound to do so) and your living or dying has no effect on anyone!
Sometimes, you are mis-interpreted most of the times!
Sometimes, you feel that the thing you want to serve, you are harming it more!
Sometimes, you just yearn for a tight hug from someone and to be in that person's arms for hours!
Sometimes, you want to take a step back but are completely strangled in duties!
Sometimes, you pretend to be strong (to have a false strength) or pretend to be weak (so that you can cry out)!
Sometimes, you just know that your sincere feelings (friendship, concern, love) are not reciprocated back!
Sometimes, you just engage yourself in too many things to run away from reality!
Sometimes, you are too kiddish to do anything!
Sometimes, you haven't heard appreciation for ages because you know that you are just not worth it!
Sometimes, you want to be not-so-successful but have a lot more peace and satisfaction!
Sometimes, you just wish that when you return after a tiring day, you have somebody to welcome you with a smile rather than have dishes to be cleaned!
Sometimes, you have so much work to do that you don't know from where you should start!
Sometimes, you feel why you are such a mellow person!
Sometimes, you spend your whole time thinking if other people in your post feel the same thing or are you the most incompetent one to handle that post!
Sometimes, you don't have the support of anyone!
Sometimes, its just you appreciating others without anybody appreciating your efforts and you then become confident that you are incompetent!
Sometimes, you wish to resign!
Sometimes, its just you loving others and you know that you are not worth their love!
Sometimes, you find yourself crying and writing this blog!
Sometimes, you just want to die...I am dying dying dying, I am dead!
Tuesday, 29 May 2007
After a long period of procrastination!!
I was tagged by Komal in February! But had been procrastinating since then, but finally decided to finally answer it!
Three things that scare me:
- Hurting the people I love specially my Ma: This is the thing which scares me the most. Now, if you had asked me the same question 5-6 months before, I would have said hurting people. But then I realized that I can't possibly care about the whole world and in any case, it hurts a lot when you care too much.... So, care only about the people who you love and also who love you :)
- Reptiles: Eeeeewwwww!!!! I am not actually scared of them but I can't stand them :... Aiyah, their scaly skin and too shiny eyes and they keep on wriggling the whole time! Aiye haiye!
- Pixi: Hahahaha! Imran might have expected this answer.... His mentor, Attila, is the only human of whom I am scared. He (Pixi) ,perhaps, knows that also. So, whenever Attila and I meet I am tortured!! (I didn't say he tortures me, its just I get self tortured :P)
Three people who make me laugh:
- Komal: Seriously speaking....hahahahahahahaha!!! Sometimes I feel that if somebody hears what all we talk about, we would be deported back to India :P. We are very random and too open!! So, you can imagine us speaking our hearts out...
- Snigdha: Wazzzzzzaaaaaaaaa?? My Snuggy.... Hehe!! She can make me laugh any time.....even when I am crying..hehe!! Her Saawariya and Suami theory... and saapadiya.... uff uff, the list is long!
- Dei: Oh, my mentor is the best mentor definitely but he is also the craziest mentor! Its not only his lame jokes and funny talks, but his actions and and expressions in general are also very funny... And I am laughing most of the time I am talking to him...
Three things I love :
- AIESEC: My first LOVE.... We love you AIESEC deep down in our hearts!! AIESEC has given me a purpose in life, my friends or you can say that it has given me LIFE!!!! People often tell me that I don't have a life because of AIESEC, what if I say that my life is only AIESEC! (I just can't explain what all AIESEC has given me)
- Dance: Known as the Dancing Queen in the AIESEC network..haha!! Inherited from my Daddy (Imran) and trained by my Mentor. And anyways, dance is a type of a stress buster for me! I can release all my tension by dancing... Learning Lindy Hop right now!! Hehe!
- Communicating: YESSS, I am a hard core Gemini in this aspect! I love talking, chatting, orkutting, mailing, facebooking, calling, even through body language!! I just love expressing myself and I love it when people can express themselves to me :)
Three things I hate:
- Being late: I hate when people (including myself) are late for meetings, outings, in meeting deadlines or anything at all! I just can't stand it... Uff uff, even the idea makes me angry :P
- Disrespect to Women: I hate it to the extent that sometimes I can be passed as a feminist! I can hate guys like anything for this and I make it quite clear wherever I go that I won't tolerate male chauvinism. Ask me, all these male chauvinist pigs should be beaten up and I won't mind doing the honours!! Hehe!
- No Values: I feel that these people can easily pass off as animals... I mean if you do not have the strength of character then what makes you different.... Unfortunately, most of the people fall into this criteria... But I console myself by saying that they have an entirely different set of values!! (I don't understand that! I mean a smoker knows that smoking is bad but still wouldn't stop it....so does he embrace the value of harming himself) Too complicated.....haha!!
- Why am I so determined to fight an already LOST battle? : Am I too optimistic? Am I actually ruining my life and the future prospects by doing so? But whatever it is, I have high hopes of still winning this battle.... Har Din mera hoga!!!! Ganbatte ne!
- Why am I always so busy? : Ok, I know that I have taken up a lot of work but no matter how hard I try, I can't take out time for myself! Haven't done that for ages.... :P Even if I take a day off :(
- AIESEC : I don't think anyone can claim to understand AIESEC completely. But that makes it such a perfect organization :D
Three things on my desk :
- My laptop (can't live without it)
- Water: I drink a lot of water, a lot a lot a lot
- My Family's photo (Ma, pa and saloni) : They are my life!
Three things I am doing now :
- Thinking about the millions of things I have to do
- Updating blog
- Chatting
Three things I want to do before I die :
- Give my Ma everything she wants
- Learn a lot of things-the list is too long!
- Start a revolution in India for the betterment of the coming generations :)
Three things I can do :
- Work for days by sleeping only 3 hours (or even less) a day : Have done that quite a number of times.
- Fight for the right thing : I am really proud of my this ability. I can stand up against things I don't believe in and won't do anything against my principles. Most people tend to be diplomatic and then back stab. As far as I am concerned, you'll get it on yuor face and then can rest assure that we can be friends again. I don't like the wrong deed not the person who did it :)
- Be Honest and Genuine : Another thing I am very proud of. I am absolutely genuine about my feelings and won't proclaim my love or guilt unless I mean it. If you can't be genuine to yourself about your feelings, you probably are not LIVING your life, just breathing to survive.
Three things you should listen to :
- Mum's advice : Seriously speaking, if you really listen to and follow your mum's advice, there won't be any problem at all. But how many times do we actually do so?? I don't do it very often but always regret not doing so!!!!! However, we need to explore life ourselves too...isn't it??
- Your Heart : I am among those type of people who listen to the heart. Brain is too selfish. Listening to the brain might help you gain materialistic success earlier but your real success comes when you follow your heart. Each of us has taken birth for a special purpose and I feel that our heart knows that purpose, if only we could listen to it! And in any case, following your heart gives more satisfaction than listening to the mind.
- Music : Duh huh!! But here i am not only referring to the music in albums, bhajans, movies etc etc. I am referring to the sound of birds chirping, waterfalls, your friend humming while bathing in the cubilcle next to yours ;), rains, even someone snoring..hehe! Listen listen listen.... even to the people talking (will give you a different perspective about things and life at large)
Three things you should never listen to :
- Your friends' criticism : Do it in front of me and be ready to get brutally snubbed. I mean I would definitely listen to the areas where he/she can improve and would love to facilitate the improvement. But dare you say something disrespectful or just for gossip thing, and I won't care who you are! And I feel that if you consider someone your friend you should stand up for that person (I am assuming that we are talking with regards to a civilized society where people don't arrow at families)
- People who don't practise what they preach : Oh!!! I know a number of these kind of people and got into a lot of trouble in my first sem trying to listen to them. Seriously, since they don't do what they say, they don't know the consequences of it and then you are trapped, darling. And the best comes when these are the first people to point out how wrong you were in doing the thing (Weren't they the ones who "advised" you to do the thing????) And honey, before you realize, you have made a fool of yourself :(
- Gossip : As Bart Simpson has rightly pointed out, you can hear all the gossip (Hehe) but no need to listen to it!!!!
Three things I'd like to learn :
- Martial Arts : It has been more than 5 years since I first got the feeling of learning martial arts but thanks to the series of fractures, muscle pulls and ligament tears, I am still at square one. But its high time now that I take up the challenge and join a CCA which teaches martial arts!! Yay!!
- Horse Riding : Another thing which has been on my To-Be-Learnt list for years now. But I think that it will have to wait for some more years to be striked off!! :(
- Other languages : I think this can never leave my To-Be-Learnt list. I am progressing though. I have started learning Mandarin now. And also have picked up quite a bit of Singlish and a bit of Bahasa Indonesia :)
Three Favourite Foods:
- Anything cooked by Mum : I miss it like anything over here.... Can't wait to be back home in July (only for 2 weeks....Buhuhu)!! But I'll eat eat eat and eat and then become FAT!!!!!! No leh, Mum's food doesn't make you fat, it just makes you HEALTHY!
- Gol Guppe (Water Balls for those who don't know) : Aaahhhh!! The super spicy water mixed with sweet sauce (meethi chutney).....stuffed in the crispy balls which are stuffed with potatoes!! Ummmm Ummmmmmm Ummmmmmmmmm!! Those who haven't eaten this are missing out on life!
- Pesambur : Latest favourite added less than a week ago. It is a Malay dish! Probably I like it so much coz I hadn't eaten proper food for 2-3 days and this was the only vegetarian dish available!!! So, yeah!! But I like the peanut sauce :)
Three beverages I drink regularly:
- Milo : I just love it.... Its so good! Can drink any variety - Favourite being Milo Dinosaur and Ice Milo!! Drink it throughout the day in the office (Free Flow of Hot Milo....Yippee!!!!)
- Carrot Juice : Drank it like anything, everyday, every meal, every opportunity :)! But haven't drunk it since I started work... Will drink soon :)
- Milk Shakes : I love them... Most of the time they serve as my dinner :)
Three TV shows I watched as a kid:
- Cartoons : I watched any thing in animated form. You could see me watch any cartoons even the dumb ones like Johny Bravo and The pink and the Brain. I still can watch all cartoons all the time. I watched the Tiny Tots cartoon (Bob the Builder, Noddy and Flipper) at the age of 17 (it is for children below the age of 3...hehe) And I remember that I fought with my Mum who scolded me when I was desperate to watch Pokemon one day before my 12th Boards exam. I love cartoons...... Thats why I am so innocent....hehe!
- Mythological/Historical Serials : I still can watch them. Increases your knowledge about the past and your religious beliefs. And they are fun :)
- Supernatural Serials : Ok, now some were really dumb (Shaktiman and Alif Laila) but I loved them and still do. But some were really nice.... I liked Captain Vyom very much :)
Three books I read as a kid:
- Famous Five : I think that I got into the habit of reading because of these books. I have read almost all and now my sister is about to finish the series.... I just love them!! They are so much fun :)
- Archie's : I was six when I got my first Archie's.... and now, I have not parted from this series of comics :)
- Harry Potter : I have all the six (Have read each 2-3 times and can score an A++++++ if I sit in a Harry Potter exam) Waiting desperately for the 7th one. Have already asked Ma to book it for me. Will be in India when the book releases :)
Three people I would love to tag:
- Sharon (Boss)
- Imran (Daddy)
- Ddee
Finally, I have answered!!
Leia Mais…Bad Result!!!! Hurrah!!!!
Ok, now I am not a self-depricating person but sometimes you need a change in life.....don't you?? So, this time I preferred to have a lot of changes (which were not good) in my life!! You can say that the past 5 months were the worst 5 months of my life (with the maximum amount of pain endured - physical, emotional, mental)... I don't deny that there were a few good things as well!! Anyhow, this pain is now complete with me doing badly in my exams....hehe!! I like to complete things! Even though this was the least expected from me....
Ok lor, I was sad coz one of my deeply cherished dreams was apparently shattered but when I realised that it was only "Apparent", I am kind of enjoying getting bad grades (actually bad in only one subject and my CAP is still ok leh :( )....
So, I tell my mum about my grades and can you guess what her reaction was????
She said, " Hurrah!! Congrats on getting a bad grade first time in your life! So, how does it feel?"
"Mum, I am not joking! I have really got a bad grade". "I know beta, people like you can't joke about their grades :P. But don't you think that you should experience a bad grade also?"
"Hmmm.... yes! May be! I don't know! I don't quite like it!"
And then my mum said, "There are people who see ups and downs in life as Successes and Failures. I would not like to see you like those people. I would like to see you like a person who sees Ups and downs as Successes and Learning points. This is my personal desire! So girl, just cheer up and learn from your mistakes. Enjoy getting a bad grade.... just party tonight! However, get your priorities right! Just reconsider what you want from life and then work for it! I am sure whatever you want, you will get! And I am always there for you! I surely won't like my daughter to be troubled by such momentary things"
"Thanks Ma! I promise that next sem I will not settle for anything I don't deserve! Hurrah! I have got a bad grade!"
Wednesday, 23 May 2007
Visa Ready!!!!
Its 2:03 pm and I just checked if my Visa to Malaysia is ready! It is ready :)... I can go to Malaysia tonight then!
I am going there for the first ever AP MC Transition Camp, so I am very excited! It is very likely that I will be the only LCP attending it! Pam is in Middle East and Alvin is saving money for the Taiwan trip in July :)...
It is a bit hard for me to leave behind Komal, and my Vikings! I am still in Singapore and have started missing them :)
One thing is for sure - LCPs tend to have parental feelings for their EB and members..... which I can feel now! I just hope they all are fine in my absence... Gosh! Its just 4 days... Stop being overly protective about your babies!!
Something away from this emotional hype - Does VISAyon need a Visa?? He has it in his name already!! How lame can I get :P
Oh.... My result will be out soon (When I will be in Malaysia), so just pray that I do well:)
Will try to update the blog from there if I can!
Take care!
Miss you all!
Tuesday, 22 May 2007
Loose Strings!!
My life consists of so many loose strings at this moment and I am unable to tie them together.... No lah, not being emotional! I am talking about work.... I have been busy busy busy..with neither the weekdays (including nights) nor the weekends at my disposal... Phew!! But as always I will say, I Love Life this way!!
Lets get a sneak peak into my to-do list!! (Note: The items here are in the URGENT list.... If I write my to do list then it will be endless)
Internship:
1. Get the CSR Manual ready by 29th May
2. Write a booklet for the UN Singapore Compact Summit in Geneva
3. Preparation for the World Environment Day event
4. Preparation for Change Makers
5. Usual Daily Work
AIESEC:
1. AP MC Transition at Penang (Malaysia) from tomorrow
2. Consolidate the LC planning
3. Prepare for MC planning
4. National planning
5. Revamp the AIESEC in NUS Blog (http://aiesecnus.nomadlife.org/)
6. Revamp the LC NUS community in aiesec.net
7. Get the sponsorship for the recruitment
8. Preparation for Matric Fair, Welcome Tea, Selection, Induction (posters, banners, flyers, getting speakers, speaking, selecting the right talent)
9. LC T-shirt Design to be finalized and T-shirts to be printed (looking for a sponsor)
10. Preparation for the Global Village (A new concept, needs a lot of attention and time)
11. Finalize the NUS-KU study tour organized by AIESEC (Looking for a sponsor)
12. Prepare the Job Description for the new members
13. Prepare the Job Description for the Senior members
14. Apply for grants for the International Congress to be held in Turkey
15. Fill the APX Conference report to claim my New Member Excellence Award
16. Prepare for International Congress
17. Database of each department and the LC as a whole
18. Database of our partners (Exchange partners or Sponsors)
19. Preparation for Jump Start (as a faci I hope)
20. Taking care that the Vikings meet up their targets
21. AIESEC in Singapore AGM
22. Meeting the BOAs
23. Other things which will crop up while doing these..
Personal:
1. Getting hold of myself (Doing all this will definitely drive me crazy....bah)
2. Making back up CDs forall the important info in my laptop
3. Reformatting the laptop
4. Going back to India (Haven't booked my tickets still :( )
5. Devoting a lot more time to God (I devote time still but it seems too less)
6. Buying a Sony Cyber Shot T20 (I love this digital camera but its toooooo Ex.. I think I'll buy in June with my first pay :) )
7. Spending more time with Komal (She is left alone most of the time)
8. Setting my priorities right
9. Learning Mandarin
10. Learning Lindy Hop Dance
11. Getting to know my teams (MC, LC and Work) and build lifetime friendships
12. Getting a life by reading books, watching movies, going out! (Haven't done all these for ages and don't see any prospects of doing so in the near future :( )
13. Celebrate Komal's Birthday (very unlikely, its on the World Environment day) but will do whatever I can!
14. Celebrate my 19th Birthday (Not Possible at all :) and I don't have any hopes.... I don't want to leave the 18 year old brand that I have been attached to.... 18 till I die
I need help from you guys!! Help help help!!
And thanks to those who are already helping (the list long)
Saturday, 19 May 2007
Crazy Week!!!!!
I never anticipated that a week (6th May - 13th May) that will start by visiting the temple would be so crazy (No connection but still some connection)... Going to the temple gives me the power and energy to face all the challenges (And someone said to me : it seems that all the challenges somehow can easily find your address)... This Year is not-so-good for me but it surely is laying the foundation for the coming years which will be mine!! :D
Anyways, sorry for the distraction... But seriously, this week had been one of the craziest and busiest week!!
Why busy???? Lets have a look at my schedule on each day:
Sunday : Going to the Temple at 7:30 am and reaching the LC transition Venue straight after that.... Then conducting the sessions for LC transition till 8 pm and going for dinner with some of the Vikings and Sharon... Dinner and then feedback from BOSS..... I love Vikings...they make me so proud :D Return back at 10 pm and help Komal shift till 00:00 hrs!!
Monday : 6 am - wake up and start getting ready!!
9 am - Reach office and stay till 6pm (Lunch break devoted to getting to know the place).
6 pm - Leave for Mustafa for some shopping :)
10 pm - Return and clean the room...
Tuesday : 6 am - Wake up
9 am - Reach office and work till 7 pm
7:30 pm - Start my Mandarin Class
10 pm - Return home and prepare for LC planning
Wednesday : 6 am - Wake up
9 am - Reach Office and work till 6 pm (Lunch Break used up for LC planning preparation)
7:45 pm- Reach the LC planning Venue and conduct the Planning till 11 pm. And then do the office work..
Thursday : 6 am - Wake up
9 am - Reach Office work till 6pm (Lunch Break used up for LC planning preparation)
7:45 pm- Reach the LC planning Venue and conduct the Planning till 11 pm. And then do the office work..
Friday : 6 am - Wake up
9 am - Reach Office work till 6pm (Lunch Break used up for LC planning preparation)
7:45 pm- Reach the LC planning Venue and conduct the Planning till 11 pm. And then prepare for MC transition
Saturday : 8 am - Wake up and MC transition till 8:30 pm. And then roam the city area with Komal till midnight....
So, isn't it busy????
Now I didn't say that it is crazy just because it was so full.... Here are a few reasons:
1. The Deo bottle blast at Mustafa
2. Komal's clumsiness everyday
3. The Lau Pa Sat conversation where Komal claims that even though we are sleeping on the same bed, we aren't doing anything and then everybody staring at us.
4. Making Komal Jay Walk at Robinson Road (which is very busy). Even when we are crossing an empty road, she holds my hand...So you can imagine what she went thru during this. She was totally unaware that I would pull her while jay walking and then she was howling in the middle of the Road
5. Stupid, weird and hurting predictions from someone from whom I expected Belgian Chocolates
6. Attending the HR Summit for free
7. Learning Mandarin
8. Stupid conversations with Komal
9. Crying on a call with Sharon
10. Sleeping very less
11. Trying new cuisines every now and then
12. Falling in LOVE with myself after a long long time :) (I mean 2 weeks)
13. Scaring everyone around us on a bus
14. Warning every couple at esplanade that the guy will ditch the girl soon (In Hindi of course)
15. Seeing Prof A.J. Berrick at Esplanade
And the best one:
There was a very classy restaurant with candle lights... Suddenly I felt the urge of Blowing off the candles... "Komal, are you wearing heels?" "No, why?" "Coz I am thinking of blowing off the candle there and the Guard is roaming around so, we may need to run" "But Shubhangi, your bag is very heavy....will you be able to run?" "Don't worry, I'll manage..... Dare me, quick!" "Dared Shub... all the best!"
And then I go to the table with utmost elegance.... pretend that I lurve the candle and bend down.. Suddenly, whoosh and I run away taking Komal with me.... Finally got lost in the crowd!! hehe...
Sunday, 13 May 2007
First Week at Work!!
First things are always very memorable....
First Day in school
First Bicycle
First Computer
First Result
First Love
First Rejection (This one is a very hurting memory)
First Day in Uni
First Day in AIESEC
First Week at Internship....
I joined my first ever internship on 7th May... I am working with the Singapore Compact for CSR... It is the Local Network of Singapore for the United Nations Global Compact and housed in the Singapore Business Federation! The best thing about working with the Singapore Compact is that I am working for a cause I believe in so much - CORPORATE SOCIAL RESPONSIBILITY!!!!
Let me take you back to December 06 (I didn't know about CSR till then). I attended AIESEC NLDS 06 and there a session was conducted by my mentor, Dei, (who was not my mentor then) and Vijit (my cousin who was the then LCP of AIESEC Delhi IIT and now the incoming MC VP PD of AIESEC in India). This session really inspired me a lot... I approached Shin, MC VP ER AIESEC in Singapore, and told him that I wanted to work on a project on CSR. He helped me and then I became the OCP of the CSR Project. My team came up with a manual on how SMEs can incorporate CSR practices in a cost effective way. Singapore Compact endorsed the manual and offered Shin and me internships which we accepted.
And finally we started our internship last week... My office!!! Gosh, its so good... Its like one of those dream offices you always wanted to work in... It has a LIBRARY... What more can I ask for?? And free flow of guess guess.... My fav drink MILO.. Woo Hoo!! I drink Milo the whole time..
But more importantly, I like the ambience of the place. I have got the most ideal employers - Mr. Thomas and Jeffrey. And then there is Ker Sin who takes good care of us!! And then Allie, Shin and I have formed a nice cosy group.... I think Shin's presence makes my internship even more exciting coz we can crack the AIESEC jokes if we need to refresh ourselves or just talk about anything at all... My perception about him has changed quite a bit!! Not that I ever had a negative impression about him - He is one of the three people coz of whom I have had a fulfilling AIESEC experience but I thought that he was not among the types who would become personally close to his colleagues in a short period of time... Well, I was wrong (He is a Gemini after all ;))
I just love my office and my internship :D
Monday, 7 May 2007
Eventful Semester!!
Well, my semester ended on 2nd May technically but I am blogging about it now.... This semester was so very eventful.... It had so many ups n downs....
A list of things which happened:
- Got my AIESEC Mentor
- Came close to Snigdha and Manavi
- Came close to Dei and Imran
- Getting to know Sharon n Pam
- Started CSR Project
- Became the President of AIESEC in NUS
- Broke my leg
- Lost my hand phone
- Have to pay the stupid S****** bill
- Selected the Vikings (They make me really proud)
- Attended APXLDS
- Chosen as the Best delegate in APX
- Made awesome friends
- Realized the truth of life : Sab ****** hain, and All men are ****.....
- Had the power to be genuine to my feelings
- Knew who were actually my friends
- Became a Stronger person
- Didn't study at all
- Came to know myself a bit more
- Enjoyed a lot...
What a semester!!
And these are just the Big things... I haven't listed down those small yet important things....
If I compare the Shubhangi I am now, and what I was in December..... I can see a vast difference!!
Leia Mais…Monday, 30 April 2007
Roller Coaster Ride!!
This week has been a complete roller Coaster ride for me.... On 25th April, some revelations were made, some hasty steps were taken, some mature decisions were made, some immature decisions were made to appear mature!! Scolded all the guys who even appeared in front of me... Sent some nasty mails, shouted at people, lost balance over myself... Komal, manavi n Snigdha trying to cover up for me...
26th April, the killer module CS1102C finally got over and I realised that i was in love with the module.... The Best Lecturer of this sem : Tan Sun Teck (CS1102C), the Best Tutor: Steven Halim (CS1102C, he is a graduate student, very cute and his status on his blog is single!! So those who like him can ask me for further info ;)). Talked to Rashika for hours.... Wow!! I love her :)
27th : Exams practically over....(the last one on 2nd)!! Watched Kya Kool Hain Hum and realised that I have started enjoying perv jokes...bah!!
28th: The weird idea of getting Dei into the MC as MC DOPI.... Dei's Farewell (I hate the word farewell... will see him pretty soon....rather too soon :P). Playing truth n dare at the pool point.... fun :D!!! Poor guys!! I was the only girl playing the game :D
29th was one of the Best Days in Singapore!! And I will describe it a bit vividly... credit for such a day goes to Snuggy, Komal n Manavi :) Snigdha was to leave for India the next day so, we had to shop.... And the two girls of our group who simply hate shopping went for shopping together...hehe (If you couldn't figure out the two girls are Snigdha n Me)!! Thats why it was so wonderful!! So, we arrive at City Hall MRT Station. First thing...BREAD TALK!!!!! Mwahahahaha.... Then we ate, n ate n ate... Next: Dei's farewell gift!! What???? Something which he would have least expected....hehe! Then we go to buy stuff for Snigdha's family n Snigdha too... Enter a shop, saw beautiful hats (Similar to Sombrero).. I wear one and snigdha takes the pic... Snigdha wears and the shopkeeper comes and tells us that photo taking not allowed... I say ok and click Snigdha's photo in front of that person.... and you can guess what happened.... (No, he didn't throw us out...We are girls!! How can a guy throw out a girl!) Alright, then we went to the Body Shop!!! And we start shopping....haha!! The bill...ummmm I can just say that it was above S$100... hehe!!
Next, we go to Esprit!! Finally, I liked a pair of sun glasses (Most of them don't suit me)!! I look awesome!! "How much is this for??".... Only S$220 Ma'am....:P Damn, why do I like only royal n expensive things?? Must have been a pricess in my previous life!!
And then we went to the body massage chair n sat for the demo.... The guy allowed us to sit there for 2 shifts....reason - he was flirting with Snigdha...haha!! he was Cute though... And Snuggy knows his whole life's story now....
Then we come back and go to Khansama to have dinner (Komal n Manavi also join us) and what happened after that.... Cannot be described...no no no no no!! Its one of the best memories...hehe!!
Next day, two see offs!! First, sending off Dei and then Snigdha!! And then I sulked almost for half the day!!
Oh...ho!! 29th April was an awesome day!! And I am missing Snigdha like hell while writing this!!
Thursday, 26 April 2007
Extraordinary Day!!
25th April, 2007 is a Golden Date whereby two (extra) ordinary people decided to do something extraordinary.... I really hope that they can succeed (I can't reveal the details now... But will update about it in may be a couple of months, years.. Lets See!!)
Leia Mais…Saturday, 21 April 2007
Exams, yay!!
Ok, now I am not among those rare species of the world who lurve exams (the likes of Hermione Granger from Harry Potter). I don't hate them either. For me they are just a part of life! Every year we have been facing the exam period atleast 2 times since the age of 2 n 1/2. Yes, I gave exams even in my prep school and Ma has kept all my answer sheets in a very good condition to perhaps show to my children :P
The whole idea being that why do we create a fuss about this period. I actually love this period (not the exams but the period). In this short period of time, we can feel almost all the emotions we are aware of. I simply love this mixed emotions' sensation. Its just so unique and I have been able to feel it only during exams.
But as all good things have some turn offs, the exam period is no exception. No, I am not talking about exams. I am fine with them. It is the stupid pre exam period. I really hate it. Its full of so much stress, apprehensions, anxiety and all those stupid emotions.... I really hate it! Once the exams start, everything is so fast and in no time you find yourself holidaying... But this pre exam period... Uff!!
Anyways, I have managed to cross this Pre exam period successfully this time as well and have entered the exam period today. Had my Maths exam today.. It was kind of ok.. Actually I am not happy with it! But thats life...
Now, let me get back to studying for the next exam!!
Tuesday, 17 April 2007
What do girls want??
Well, the past few days have made me realise what girls actually want when they are stressed or in some problem. They want somebody to empathetically listen to their problems. They don't want solutions (they either have them or would accept them later). They just want someone to listen them out and empathize with them, someone to make them feel that they are not alone, someone to support them, someone to make them feel secure, someone to care for them and other emotional sentences can be included (Its a long list). And all this can be done by just listening to them without butting in with the solutions to their problems..
I think all the girls generally can do it very well, its the guys who should be trained the ability of empathetic listening... What do the guys do wrong??
Firstly, they try to show their concern by providing solutions... Excuse me, girls have brains which are perhaps sharper. They know the solution, they just want to talk out their stress... Can you just lend them your ears?? I was telling one of my guy friends that I am not prepared for my exams, he replied with utmost concern, "Then study harder and prepare." Duh huh! Did you really think that if you had not told me this, I would have not studied.... Of course, I would have! I just wanted you to say, "Don't worry! I understand your situation but I am sure that you'll do well." It would have been such a morale booster...
Secondly, they try to invalidate our feelings!!!! This is the worst thing you can ever do to us... Ok, sometimes our worries might appear to have no basis ( being polite by not saying illogical) but then we are GIRLS!!!! We always have our reasons for feeling in a certain way, which you as guys cannot understand.... So, please don't invalidate our apparently illogical worries!!! Girls can always understand these feelings... Thats why my partner sent me a very empathetical mail today..... Thanks Pam!! Love ya! Guys, just give us some re-assurance....Thats all we want and need! We are not asking for something you can't give... are we??
Monday, 16 April 2007
Just an update... I sent Saloni a bouquet of flowers and a card.... She has become mad with happiness....
Haha... I am sooooooo happy!!
Happy Birthday Darling!!!
Today is my darling's birthday... My sister, Sonakshi (a.k.a. Saloni, Pikachu) has turned 12!! My God, time flies! It looks as if she was born just yesterday (Sounds like a dramatic Indian Movie dialogue :P)
But seriously, I had always longed for a sister. She was born when I was 7. Coz I was a premature child and I had a hole in my heart and was on continuous medication for the first 5-6 years of my life. And hence, my parents did not want to have another child. But then the medication cured my problem and I was blessed with a sister.
She is my sweet heart. I just love her so much. She makes me so very proud! I am so lucky to be an integral part of her life..
Even though she doesn't know about my blog (I think she is too young to know about life and experience it through my posts), I would love to wish her from the bottom of my heart....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!!!
May you get whatever you want.... And remember, though I can't be present around you physically, I am always there for you!!! :)
Love you loads!!
Make Ma and Me more and more proud of yourself.....
Sunday, 15 April 2007
Stupid Needs!!
These exams make me so vulnerable... I am feeling the need of being loved, cherished and pampered.. Uff-uff!! I need my sense of security which unfortunately I am not able to find...
My family is not around,
I haven't been much in contact with Rashika (my best friend),
Komal has gone to India,
Siddharth Bhaiya and I have developed a communication gap,
Dei is all busy preparing for his moderation and departure,
I have never talked about such vague feelings to Imran
and above all,
I have A SENSE OF LOSS AND OF NOT BEING PREPARED!!
I really hope that this phase passes soon... Thank God that Snuggy and Manavi are around otherwise I would have gone mad!!
But I shall keep on fighting!!
Wednesday, 11 April 2007
Pojjiee!!!!
I remember one of my Value Education lessons in Std 12 (JC 2) very vividly when my Principal, Sr. Aloysius, asked us which is our favourite word.... There was a huge variety of answers ranging from Mom, God, Studies, Love and laughter and so on.... And then Rashika said that she likes Uji because Adi-Dia (Her newly born twin siblings) call her by that name.. Quite true, isn't it??
The names by which different people call us are perhaps the most important words for us.. Imagine you are in a huge gathering (doing whatever) and somebody calls out your name(may be somebody else with your name) but you definitely respond to that, don't you? By name I don't just mean the registered English or Chinese names but your nick names as well...
I consider myself very very lucky to have a large number of nick names...And mind you, the inventors have the copyrights for each name.. I try my best that these rights are not violated.. ;)
Shubhangi - The World
Shubhi - Family
Sia - Ma
Shubbie - Pam and (Sometimes) Imran
Shube - Daddu (Now nobody after he died, and I won't allow anybody to call me this)
Shubbie Doobie Doo - Vijit Bhaiya (Inspired by Scooby Dooby Doo)
Subi - Jain Uncle
Shub - Originally Imran, now the whole AIESEC world and my non-Indian friends..
Shub Bangs, Shub Bangs - Dei
Shub-bung-bung - Ker Ying
Shub Shub - Nabeel, Henri
Shu - Cecilia
Didichu - Saloni
Daughter - Imran
Mentee - Dei
Sis - Udit Bhaiya, Devika
Boss - Paul
Buddy - Alvin
Partner - Pam
Mate - Alvin
Moti - Rashika
Saawariya - Snigdha (with dance) and Komal
Circuit (pronounced as cir cute) - Snigdha, Komal and Manavi
Fauji - Siddharth Bhaiya
Recently, one more name has been added to this list :
Pojjiee (pronounced as Pauji) by Snigdha...
I think this is one of the cutest names I have been given.... And the way she says it.. Just like a small kid calling her loved ones... So many feelings take hold of me when she calls me by this name!!
Each of these names is so very special to me... I love each of them... :)
Tuesday, 10 April 2007
The Power of ONE...........
This is what we (Komal, Snigdha, Manavi and I) say when weird (or random) people ask us if we have a boyfriend or some other personal questions:
ONE Boy,
NO Boy,
ONE Girl,
ONE Person,
ONE Soul,
ONE Life,
ONE Inspiration,
ONE Idea,
An Idea can change your LIFE!!!!
Haha....Confused???? Thats the objective mah!!!!
Then we have fits of hilarity that last for:
ONE Second,
ONE Minute,
ONE Hour,
ONE Day,
ONE Week,
ONE Month,
ONE Season,
ONE Year,
ONE LIFETIME!!!!
Cheers to us!!!!
